Wendy passed away at about 10am this morning. I am sorry for having taken this long to write this posting as I have just come home now.
This morning, the adopter managed to feed Wendy some food. She ate. Then, to everyone’s delight, she defecated. We all cheered.
She probably wanted to go off “clean”, hence she emptied her bowels. I know many humans do that before they go.
The adopter went off to market, and when he returned, Wendy’s twitching had stopped and she was not breathing anymore. But, her body was still warm. It was just a matter of about half an hour that he was gone.
Wendy probably did not want any of us to see her going, so she chose to go after a good meal, and after she had cleaned herself.
Yesterday, my friend told me it could be a “sudden revival” before death (Wendy’s sudden improvement from her lateral recumbency and non-eating state). And I knew he could be right. Many humans do that, I’ve seen a few cases. But I preferred to keep my hopes high and ride on optimism.
On hindsight, Wendy probably wanted to give me a chance to feed her, care for her and look after her before she passed on. We probably have a strong karmic connection that had to be completed in this lifetime, together.
In the past two weeks, I was under severe pressure to give the order to have her euthanised. In my moments of weakness, I was “this close” to succumbing, but I knew that even if I had agreed and when the time came, I would have stopped the vet and said “No”. It is not about religious beliefs or even values. It is simply because I felt I had no right to give the order to end anyone’s life. It is not my calling. It is that person’s (animal’s) calling, or the universe’s. It is not mine.
Life is to be respected, not destroyed or terminated, no matter how hopeless it may seem to be. This is just my personal view, which I have never claimed to be “the” right view.
I want to thank everyone who had lent their support during this crucial period. Some of you were there for me, even though you did not quite agree with our decision of saying “no” to euthanasia. Yet, you offered helpful advice. You even came forth to help out physically. Thank you for respecting our decision. Thank you, for respecting Wendy’s decision.
There are two people I want to thank for giving me their very strong and unbending support as I went through this extremely trying period. First, it’s Wani, of MDDB, who shared with me her experience in dealing with dying dogs, and her strong conviction about no-euthanasia, gleaned from her Hindu upbringing. Second, and no less, is Wendy’s adopter, who told me in no uncertain terms that I could direct all criticisms to him, and that he will answer them on my behalf should I find it too hard to bear. I must also not forget those who have written very supportive comments in response to my postings on Wendy. Some are strangers, and I can’t thank you all personally, but please know that your support is priceless and is most appreciated.
There was actually only two vicious emails directed at me, and both were sent by the same person. A few fellow animal-loving friends chose to keep their silence, which was probably their show of disagreement over our decision. I heard them too. We respect each other for our difference in opinion. That ought to be the way. Harsh words just don’t help. We know so little about life, so, how can we claim who is right and who is wrong?
The first thing I did this morning when I received news of Wendy’s passing was to go to Public Bank, and make our pledged donation to the poor dog (suffering from burns) who is now being treated by MDDB. The donation is made in loving memory of Wendy. It is from all of us at AnimalCare. We transfer the merits accrued from this deed to Wendy, and wish her a safe journey to her next existence, in a much better and happier plane.
Wendy has taught us, in this short time, the meaning of strength, endurance and acceptance. She accepted her illness bravely, and endured all the discomfort calmly. She hardly complained of any pain throughout her illness, never yelping or whining in agony. She was always an icon of peace and serenity, quietly accepting what is, and letting nature take its course.
Wendy, we salute you with our deepest and heartfelt respect. You are an inspiration to us all.
Wendy decided to go today, after giving me the opportunity to look after her fully for 3 whole days. I thank Wendy, from the bottom of my heart for according me this priceless experience, and for giving me the joy of seeing her well again. In these 3 days, Wendy received 24 hours non-stop loving-kindness chanting, and was in a pleasant environment surrounded by green grass, fresh air and the beauty of nature.
Walk on now, brave one, with hope in your heart, knowing you are loved and respected by all of us who wish you well in your next journey through life. Hold your head up high, and walk on…
And please continue to guide us from where you are now.
Goodbye, but only for now, dear sweet Wendy.
We will meet again on Rainbow Bridge.